Life settles to an understanding which keeps defining and redefining understanding. I just keep asking God to hold on to me. I want to be here for the family but sometimes I become exhausted. Let us continue to pray and hold on to the reigns. It is not just our lives, but the lives affected by the rumblings of our nation and our world. 

I figured out why happy does not feel the same as it used to. How can it? Our consciousness is being reminded every minute; all is not right with the world. So instead of laughing loudly when we can laugh, or crying when we think we should. It is manifested by our very existent in a world of ‘sorrow’ around the world.